Friendship - Hurt - SORRY - HOPE, I miss HER

There is this theory, that you can't help who you fall in love with. What I used to think was total bullshit until she came along. I was Mr. Play -it -safe. Mr. Always-Busy. I never let a girl get close to me; I kept a distance. Until she came along. It was more than a quarter century of years, never been in love, never even had a short-term relationship. Until she came along. It just started with friendship phones, e-mail, specifically saying electronic communication. Got in touch with her after a long long time. Yes, we knew each other but it is just for record. Maybe we were destined to meet once more in life and this was the time. We were so comfortable with each other, shared our joy, problems and much more. As time passed by the feelings inside me started to evolve and take a different form. Yes it felt beautiful. She changed everything, she gave me something I never had before; she made me feel important and worthy. Yah, I am the hopeless type. She was always right. My views were changing. I started to see life with a different and better perspective. I never told her my new feelings for her, perhaps was afraid of losing her, losing my dear friend. I was still making up my mind and waiting for the right time. Then suddenly I did something wrong. I am still not so clear what. Yah, I know I am dumb. She has stopped communicating. She doesn't even check my mails or maybe she checks, she never replies. I know I have hurt her, hurt her really very bad. Some of my friends suggested I write a letter to her, but don't send it. This way I would be free to get out of my emotions. But I dont want to get out of it. This absence of hers has created such a void in my life, now i know her true worth. I know she was the truest of true friend, full of life, never demanding and very caring. Will she ever forgive me and come back into my life. I HOPE.

My whole life is taking a different course and I am trying my best to hold it here. But it is only SHE who can help me.
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